omg, what am i doing, i keep think to much, and mess things up. and i am so sorry that i do and i can't explain why.

i just don't know what to do any more..i really want to do it, but i don't know if i still have you that close that i think i have you, i know i am a little of and badass sometimes, wetter i want to or not. but that's who i am take it or leave it.
my thing now is that i'm not sure when to ask and to tell, Honestly i'm a little scared of what i might get in to when i take this to the next step. i have no idea why i am writing in english just some how it seems much more easy for me to say everything, yes i am weird but that's just me.. what to do? when to tell him? i don't know but i do know i will and some day soon, maybe not this week but next week or it will be to late, if it already isn't. i hope not. But i will see when i ask you...i just hope you say Yes...that's all i am asking for, a simpel yes..

i know that maybe only one person nows who i am talking about and thanks for knowing me so well. i don't know what to do without you... much Love...

xoxo J